had a sounds test on friday.. sucked big time. sometimes i wonder, why am i taking eng lang insted of eng lit? i've always liked literature and scored fairly well in it.. why did i choose eng lang in the end? thinking about it has only led me to one answer. due to job prospects. with eng lit, there's nothing much for me to do 'cept for teaching. eng lang on the other hand, can allow me to go into more areas. what the hell. deciding my major based on job prospects, not on what i really like deep down. what am i doing!??! but oh well, i've chosen this course, shall try to do well in it.
i think i'm not smart. plus the fact that i'm quite lazy, it's not the best combination for success. hah. talk about stating the obvious. it's just that lately, i've been feeling demoralised when i look at my work as compared to others. why cant i do as well? maybe its the fact that i never really put much effort into my work that's causing this.. sigh.. i try, i really do. take the german test that day for example. i did study. i really did. but nothing managed to go in. at all. i managed to pass that test alright, but only 69%. that's lousy when others are getting 98% and what not. hah. i didn't really want to take german in the first place. but well, i'm taking it now and there's no turning back. hope i can do better in the next test and make up for the absymal result this time.
okay... next week's the term break, or for 4 days anyway. sounds nice, good for rest but the teachers are really something. holiday homework (sounds so kiddish) given out, and after the break, bring on the tests!! man, i hate breaks now. they just mean to give you time to study for major tests the week after the break. it all equals out to... no break. fantastic.
oh yesh, i set up another blog on blogspot to test it out. go check it out and tell me whether i should move it there, or leave my blog here as it is.. comments are most welcome!!
http://www.lazymi.blogspot.com
okie dokes, that's about it.. i'll log off now. ta!